Friday, April 21, 2006

Sun, sun, sun, here it comes......

it's a beautiful sunshiney day
and my heart is sunny too - the first time in days -
so i can really appreciate and bask in the lightness
(thank you, thank you,thank you,thank you,thank you,thank you,)

doing the last 4 pieces of artwork have been a roadmap for me
showing me where i am and where i might go
it's amazing how art does that for me
it's so much more that something pretty or something fun to look at
or something bold...
it's a part of my heart that comes up into my hands and leads me home
it always leads me home

here's what i know today
i woke up at 4:30 this morning and my very first thought was
clear, strong, and powerful
i long for friendships that are deep
where my soul meets another
in a place we both recognize
i have that with people who live in far away places
i have that with no one close to me physically (aside from my husband)
no woman friends near by
ones that i feel a deep love and connection with
the kind where my heart beats stronger and quicker
and i feel more myself than i knew

which brought me to this clear awareness
as much as i love this beautiful place we now call home
where we've raised our kids and put down roots
as much as i recognize my love and connection with this place
i need to move somewhere where i can be closer to kindred spirits
somewhere like Port Townsend
we both love it there
i KNOW i need to do this otherwise i feel i'm going to wither up and die
i need more human contact, tea and coffee, and belly laughing, and hugging
i want to live closer to town now

as the day wears on
i feel more and more clear about it
if it were up to me
i'd drive into town today to the real estate office and get the whole thing going
why wait?!!!
walter feels we need to sit on it for a couple months while we do repairs and
get some landscaping down, make sure it's what we really want
he's so reasonable, so slow and steady
times like this it drives me crazy
i want to be impulsive and rash
i want to let go here and who cares where we end up? really.
in a year he'll retire and we can go anywhere
assuming we can sell this place

so, that's my plan
and i feel happier just thinking about it
may the universe support us in this venture

5 comments:

Misty Mawn said...

Oh Katie, I so much know the feelngs you are having!
I miss you dear one!!!!!! So much looking forward to seeing you again!!!! xoxoxo

Maija said...

Make your move, Katie! I can't imagine how you must feel. I have a group of artists I meet with 1/month and my girlfriends I meet for coffee several times a month. I love and need my girl time!
Good luck on your new adventure!

Deb said...

Katie...

Just DO it! We did it, and everyone thought we were CRAZY. It really is TRUE that a place can feed you soul. I know it. I live it. I love it.
You can do it too.
You are in my thoughts - always.
Hugs-

Deb

P.S. todat's "identity fill in the blank" to comment on your blog and verify my identify is "uhckl" - looks an awful like UCK to me, which was what Charlotte, NC & vicinity was doing to my life! Now, it's YUM!
You can say, YUM, too!

Di said...

I know how you feel!I love your Blog!!!

tracy loves pink! said...

sweet katie,
trust your instincts...listen to your husband....let it all soak in and do what you need to do to get ready. It was so wonderful seeing you at artfest. I wish I could have had more time with you. Thinking of you. oxox, tracy